second hand classic

i’m too freaking anxious
and sometimes hysterical.
i get attatched way too easily
and am easily broken.
i long to be loved
and completely empty at the same time.
i give myself away too much
and then wonder why i get so hurt.
i have way too many questions
and not nearly enough time to find all the answers.
i’ve let down a lot of people i love
and don’t know how to make it up to them.
i’m a little weird and crazy
but i try to hide it.
i’m way too heartbroken
and lonely.

i cry because time moves both much too fast

and much too slow at the same time.
i want to seize the day
but i don’t know how.
i am too much of a coward to live

and yet too much of a coward to die.